So, last weekend was interesting. I knew going in that I would see him. I did my best to prepare myself for that. I didn't want there to be any drama. I mean it was our mutual friend's birthday weekend. We were there for her. So I strapped my shell on tight, reinforced its wall... Continue Reading →
late night thoughts
I don't want you to sit up at night thinking about me... I want you to text me... Send me a message... Even if it is just to say hi... Because I want you to be who I am not... Isn't that how you fill in the empty spaces? I want you to be... Continue Reading →
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lessons learned from my ex
rainbows don’t always come after a storm and when they do they don’t stick around long and words hurt even empty ones with no rebound action or is it an assist action or was it the action that cut through my soul fairytales don’t grown on trees and promises only go as far as you... Continue Reading →
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The Perfect Date
high off life or cotton candy or funnel cake with strawberries hair red bleached & baked by chlorine’s date with the sun jean shorts still heavy from rapids promising a shower or a soak knees wobbly after using a rollercoaster to air dry teddy bear bigger than you cause you’ve looked 12 since you were... Continue Reading →
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Dear me…
Myself and I have decided that we are tiered of sitting silently back and watching you run us in circles. Now I know myself and she can be a handful. But I don't think that is any reason to keep her locked away. You should really let her out every once and a while. She... Continue Reading →
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untitiled
i raise my glass to the pain of not knowing and gulp to fight the fear i have to ask i clean the mirror in hopes of seeing myself clean when i need to windex my eyes... bleach my mind my soul trapped inside a cell inside this shell worn by my heart battle scarred... Continue Reading →
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Sometimes
he said he felt like i didn’t love him, like he was just my friend a friend with the alarm code to my heart & the key to my soul… if only he’d turn it saw our future through a telescope growing together, taking each day as it came me, ready to abandon the script... Continue Reading →
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Dear Happiness,
We seem to be having the typical turtleberry romance... where we dance around the subject and sometimes ignore the feelings until we can't anymore and fall head first... only for it to be too much too soon or not enough or just not what we thought it was. I want you to know that I... Continue Reading →
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A letter to my ex…
Dear past love… And I would like the record to reflect that I was in love with you. Any comment you thought was a joke when I talked about us getting married was not. I could see it. Some days I could reach out and touch it because it was that real in my mind. ... Continue Reading →
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A letter to my future husband…
my love, This morning I wished so hard that I was waking up in your arms... or at least next to you. If we are married then I know that you are indeed truly something special. I want to thank you for taking the time to try and understand me. I don't for a second... Continue Reading →
Inside the Shell 